God Are you LISTENING?? I have been asking this question a lot as of late, part of me feels guilty because deep down I know He has a plan for me and I just have to be patient. I have a strong faith...I really do! BUT a lot has been going on in my life. I have been willing to be flexible and go different directions as life presented opportunities. Unfortunately, many times just to walk to another stalemate.
I started my Masters a year ago, I enjoyed it tremendously but moving out and doing my on again off again job and school led to MAJOR stress and interesting symptoms so I have decided to take some time off and return to looking for a more reliable employment situation with OH MY GOODNESS perhaps benefits!!
I don't think I expect too much from life. I want to work for a living I am doer even if I was a millionaire I would still want a position where I had to get up and go assist people everyday it is just part of who I am.
People always say you have to be happy with who you are before you can be happy with someone else. I used to believe that, it made sense. However now that I think about fundamentally in my core I am happy with who I am. What I am not hsppy about is my current circumstances/tests/trials or whatever you want to call them. This is why I often communicate with my closest Christian friends during these times because although they cannot make my struggles disappear they can align with me as allies in prayer and that lifts my spirit greatly.
It is hard to quietly wait on God's Will to be fulfilled in your life, so many times I am pleading and screaming for the immediate pain to be taken, God looks down wraps His loving arms around me and says " I am here my child,my plan for you is best. Remain faithful and your reward shall be great"
God Please help me to focus on you when I just want to fall apart.
My struggles are nothing compared to Mary's when she was told she was bringing Jesus into this world yet the lyrics to this song give me peace in my life at the present... Amen
Point Of Grace Winter Wonderland
Breath of Heaven (Mary's Song)
I have traveled many moonless nights,
Cold and weary with a babe inside,And i wonder what i've done.Holy father you have come,And chosen me now to carry your son.I am waiting in a silent prayer.I am frightened by the load i bear.In a world as cold as stone,Must i walk this path alone?Be with me now.Be with me now.Breath of heaven,Hold me together,Be forever near me,Breath of heaven.Breath of heaven,Lighten my darkness,Pour over me your holiness,For you are holy.Breath of heaven.Do you wonder as you watch my face,If a wiser one should have had my place,But i offer all i amFor the mercy of your plan.Help me be strong.Help me be.Help me.Breath of heaven,Hold me together,Be forever near me,Breath of heaven.Breath of heaven,Lighten my darkness,Pour over me your holiness,For you are holy.Breath of heaven,Hold me together,Be forever near me,Breath of heaven.Breath of heaven,Lighten my darkness,Pour over me your holiness,For you are holy.Breath of heaven.Breath of heaven.Breath of heaven.
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