When you fall in love..Don't lose yourself

Every age group has to handle interesting situations as they mature and experience new things. For people my age (in their mid to late twenties) this often means meeting a special someone, getting married, and starting a family of one's own. Eventually, that is one of the things I hope will occur in my life, but recently I have found it quite interesting to sit back and observe the time of life for friends of mine.
This weekend I saw examples of couples at each end of the spectrum. One is just recently engaged, she had never dated prior to a "chance meeting" of a young man sitting down next to her in a pew in church for several weeks and they eventually went out and fell in love gradually.
Growing up this person was unique, she had few friends but the ones she had were VERY CLOSE!! Insecurity was a struggle, she questioned who would date her since she was not one of the popular girls. Even though this was the case she stayed strong and true to herself, focused on school and when she stopped looking (according to her) the love of her life came into her life. In this sense this young woman is a lot more secure than she thinks she is. Her fiancee loves her for who she is nothing has changed. He loves her analyzing nature,her tendency to argue, but he knows when she needs someone to stand up to her and other times when she needs a soft place to fall.

Then there are others I see that get married and I have NO Doubt they are in love but it seems that the insecurity is pervasive even in the marriage relationship.
This is exemplified in situations where the young wife is visiting in laws and she asks her husband constant questions about simple activities. "The dog is out of water, do you think I should give him more?" The question was continually posed until it was answered. I don't understand how a young woman who is smart feels that every decision no matter how small should go through her husband. This is a Christian couple and I do believe biblical principles should be followed in a relationship/marriage such as being submissive. However I don't think giving the dog more water qualifies.

It is one of my hopes for the future to find a partner for life and get married eventually, and although I have had some issues with being insecure in relationships when I was younger and immature. I have grown and I gain great hope from seeing stories like the first one play out in the lives of my closest friends.
I only hope I can be a support to some of the others who in my opinion might benefit from some empowerment

Don't mess with my man!! #15

Tonight was like every other night there is a televised Cardinals game, I was happily lounging in front of the TV listening to the commentary, and enjoying my team's very comfortable 8-3 lead. All of a sudden a ball was scorched out to left field. The seconds went in slow motion as I saw the possibility that Chris Duncan could easily mis-play this ball and our lead would evaporate. AMAZINGLY!!! he caught the ball with veteran LIKE finesse.

Notice my wording here I purposely used the term like.

One of the announcers however saw fit to make an incredibly ridiculous comment. His name Al Hrabosky and he said "Chris Duncan has made more spectacular catches in the outfield these days than Jim Edmonds."

Now I realize Jim Edmonds has not been his normal self but his a glove toting veteran of the major leagues who is still majorly contributing to this team including in TONIGHT'S CONTEST!!

YES, Duncan made a great play and it had a tremendous impact on our chances to win this game and ultimately the series, but do not EVEN if you a former player and announcer and feel you are a MAJOR authority on all things St. Louis Cardinals compare a virtual rookie to a well established, all-around, body sacrificing veteran who can cover more ground faster than Hrabosky could ever dream!!

There I feel better now.. WARNING don't soak erroneously about someone I care about! You might just wind up in the blogosphere!!

Place in THIS WORLD?????

I BEG YOU HEAVENLY FATHER.... JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL OF MY LIFE PLEASE...

The past months I have come through so many trials. Many would say that these devastating circumstances would shake the core of their faith, but not mine Lord. Honestly, there were times I questioned Why me?, but I ultimately clung to you because you are the most faithful and forgiving suppurt.

Now that my life seems to be returning back to "normal" I feel I am shaky ground. Maybe it is because I stared into the face of my own mortality. My spirit was stirred that I have so much work to do for you, and that ypu have so much good in store for me. I am at a loss right now.
I have been praying fervently for direction, a message in the sky, but I still (try) and patiently figure out your will in my life now.

I have been made aware of many things through my experiences thus far in 2007, and I'm grateful, I'm just having trouble seeing your plan.. I want my loved ones to be fufilled and happy no doubt. But God can yougive me a glimpse of my future road and possible happy times!

I trust you to do what is best always!

Place in This World- Michael W. Smith

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems
Feels like I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world
If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong?
Is there a vision
That I can call my own?
Show me, I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Lookin' for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Lookin' for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world

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Hold Me Jesus- Rich Mullins

Sometimes my life just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big And my faith just seems so small
So hold me Jesus, I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul There must be blisters on my heart

So hold me Jesus, I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want Than to take what You give that I need And I've beat my head against so many walls I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band is playing this hymn And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin

Oh, hold me Jesus, I'm shaking like a leaf You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace Oh, hold me Jesus, I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace
You've been King of my glory Won't You be my Prince of Peace

Everything To God.. and that's what matters

OK, so I started this blog with the second entry being all about how I named it. How it would be nice to have someone to Bring Things Home To ..and how I didn't think I should be hard to match because I am a very caring , xompassionate, person BLAH, BLAH. As usual I then inserted the lyrics of the song that inspired this thought process.

Well for those of you who may read this or haphazardly stumble upon my ramblings I have had a slight perspective change recently.
People's lives are messy, mine certainly has been recently (by no fault of my own,life just happens) and if you always try to get everything you need from others, your needs will come up and you won't feel like you are important enough.

I realized during my recovery that I wanted to feel cared for all the time, I wanted to feel like someone's EVERYTHING and that person is not in my life.

Then one day I heard Brad Paisley's She's Everything (and excluding a few verses) even though I know the song is meant between a husband and wife it came to me that God himself feels that way and knows each of us that intimately.

So even if I don't find a guy tha believes I am his other half I have a Creator that everyday says "She's my Everything" and that gives me amazing courage and hope!!

She's Everything- Brad Paisley


She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holy pair of jeans She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything She's I want a piece of chocolateTake me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear Now and then she's moody She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowin She's a soft place to land And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation That I wouldn't miss for nothing She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

[Chorus] And she's everything I ever wanted And everything I need I talk about her, I go on and on and on because she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town And a church girl on Sunday She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday She's a bubble bath and candles Baby come and kiss me She's a one glass of wine And she's feeling kinda tipsy She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers She's a picture in my walletOf my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer And she's the song that I'm playing

[Repeat chorus]

She's the voice I love to hear Someday when I'm ninety She's that wooden rocking chair I want rocking right beside me Everyday that passes I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one That I'd lay down my own life for
And she's everything I ever wanted And everything I need She's everything to me
Yeah she's everything to me Everything I ever wanted And everything I need
She's everything to me Yeah she's everything to me everything to me